of being a single

I had a very truthful moment when i was YM(ing) with my former student last nite. We were discussing about how good and bad of being a single. We both agree that being a single is quite easy I mean we are more independent and free to choose and do what we want because there is no string attached BUT we are also agree that it is undeniable that sometimes we need somebody to share things, feelings, happiness, sadness etc.

Being a single at my age...some might say that I must be the "memilih" type..honestly YES!..I mean who needs just any type of man..even a criminal would go for somebody who are "beriman, baik tingkah laku, sopan etc. So definitely we have to make our choice and believe me... it is not as easy as choosing or picking up fresh fish from the market! We are dealing with a very soft part of our life...the heart..

Should you trust your heart then... of choosing the rite person, your soul-mate, your other-half etc.? The answer is YES and NO..because as human being we are fully-furnished with "hati & perasaan serta akal yang sangat mantap!"...so use all these equipment to look for the one that is rite for you...even though it's going to take ages to find one!

life goes on

It has been 3 days since the lost of Almarhum Sultan Johor and the whole corner of Johore are now in grief for 7 days. I am not sure about others but I can feel the sorrow around me but things must get going..I still need to conduct lectures and doing tasks that was given to me last week...guess that this is where we need to think that life must go on...but don't forget to take a glimpse of the past..

i don't know how to say it

its going to be a hard and boring this week. i couldn't say what is my condition after 3 weeks of lectures & tutorial classes but one thing for sure that i'm a bit suprised, glad and lost! Surprised because after 3 weeks gone i am still having empty class besides chairs and annoying sound of the air-conditioner but NO STUDENTS!..Glad because this semester i got less teaching hours BUT its to early to confirm coz based on last semester's incedent at a very last minute & a very last tutorial weeks i got extra class. I feel lost coz i still dont know what sholud i work on my Ph.D proposal topic even though i have lots of ideas but no FOCUS!

bila lagi.....PART 2

On my way to class today, one of my former student who is now in his final year studying engineering asked me.."bila nak walimah?" and I replied .."selagi tak ada gosip2 tu diam2 je..". Hahaha..I feel kinda funny for the answer but thats the safest feedback that i could think off..

Another situation..one of "Makcik Cleaner" here in my work place and she is one of the makcik(s) that i knew..asking me quite a similar tone kinda question.."Hai... teringin nak makan nasi minyak Fazita..bila lagi?"..my reply.."Nasi minyak?? bila2 saya boleh bawak makcik pegi makan.."..hahaha another case close..ermm I mean for that moment...

Similar situation...while i'm YM'ing (pls don't use this term for official purpose..just my expression..hehe) with a friend..one of the topic that poped-up is about making choices..he give me a very good and interesting analogy..between BUFFET & TABLE DHOTE (he's the hotcat expert..that's why). He said that..BUFFET is there a lotta choices that you can chose from...TABLE DHOTE is u have to take only that.... mean no choice .. decision is from your parents.

Well...is it hard for one to make excuses and choices? What would you do if you are in my shoes?

Mad World?

When i first listening to this song sung by Adam Lambert (AI gay) i fell in love but i'm doing my analysis on the lyrics to figure out something...

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny,I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world

What do you think?

new dawn..new horizon

It's the begining of a new year of 2010. I believe most of us are now having plans, dreams and determination in hand to embark on this new page of our life. Where many people tend to have their new year resolution..we sometimes fall to the trends..in where at the end of each year we end-up of not achieving what we have planned or maybe dreamt for.

In my shoes I strongly believe that we don't need to have every new year or the good one to realise what we have plan and dream. It is strongly depends on our own effort as what my "Ustazah & Ustaz" remind me.."ALLAH tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang kecuali dia berusaha...." If we success then we should be thankful and if we fail we shouldn't be sad coz we still have ALLAH to be a shoulder to cry on...

Perhaps I must state what are my plans & dreams for my next page of life..well..how about double-up my effort to be a better person and some seriousness in building up good/better mars & venus MOU..