I was always be positive and motivated when i hear others are having hard time and feeling down...and never thought that I can be in their shoes one day. Then again I was wrong...i know that sometimes being highly motivated and positive to others for their ups n downs will take a toll on me too.
Yes! i do have my ups and downs and this time it is more than i can take......i am very devastated over the condition of my beloved sister. I admit that i cried like everyday just to think that i could lose her......and i think i could not afford to lose her this time for real.....
The truth is I will hardly try to hide my tears and sorrow because I don't want people to see me as a weak person and I am the person who don't like to share my family (personal) to others that I don't close with ( that was the result of the biggest betrayal of others to me).....
But sometimes you can't hide it for too long....yes! and it has happened to me when i burst into tears every time people asked me about her (i can say several times)...i got very fragile when it comes to her....i did say to myself that i need to be strong........but I am not that strong now....
