Do u really like my shoes?

"At the moment I feel that I hate myself. I always wonder why I can't be like u. So enjoyable to be with n so pleasant to talk to and funny n always have something interesting to talk about"

Those are text messages that I received from my buddy who is now studying in Aussie for her PhD. The fact that she is a very strong and independent woman but yet she said that she can't fit in and wonder if she could be like me....

The truth is sometimes I feel like trying to be in her "shoes" as well..but come to think of her "feelings" I should consider myself as lucky coz people likes me and the truth is this is not the first time that people said that they are happy to be with me. So I told my friend that in order to fit in... sometimes we need to be like what they want...I mean show your "happy mask" and hide your "sorrow" and for most of the time try to smile coz people don't really care why u are unhappy except somebody or friends who really care for you...

promises and lies

To some people making promises are easy as well as breaking it...but what do they thinking when making all these promises?..do they know that when promises are made it meant to be kept or bounded with it?

Well i don't know about other people but I have made a promise to somebody about how I wanna change my life from being not nobody to somebody...Allah knows how I wanna break that promise but concerning the trust that has been built and I don't wanna be a bad person...I try my very hard to fight myself to keep my promise at its place.

Spells meant to be broken but promises meant to be bounded...

Inspiring to inspire

Another days gone by and I started to realise that my blog need to be updated with more nice, motivating and inspiring quote. Well...anyone will start to blame the time and 24 7 is still not enough for many...guess if we are been given the whole world is still not enough to feed the greedy soul....
Talking about inspire...well not many people can do that because it takes so many things to inspire and being inspired...so? does it hard to inspire people?...hmm..actually not coz people live are because of reasons...reasons that makes them different and inspire different group of people.

what song are u?

I read a newspaper article last week...it was about how songs can affect your life, motivation and how do you perceive this world. Yeah...for many people they might have their own so called "our song" to reminisce different memories (bitter or sweet) throughout their precious life...the song can be in different genre to describe different mood for example if am furious then a "head-banging" kinda song is my choice and when I'm broken then I would go for the same genre too or the song that motivates me back...and my all time favorite is "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson..

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

betrayed everyone?

I was having a casual conversation with my colleagues about work and how things has changed after few years of "inhaling" some bad influences to our life. As the times goes by we agreed that for some reasons we are very happy of what things has become now...but it comes to my mind of some people said that we should cherish the moment that we enjoy while we still can and don't ever look back. Speaking of looking back...during our "catastrophic" time..we both have experienced the taste of betrayal and being betrayed by somebody that most of all know..."best friend" a.k.a "the person that you trust"...we shared our thoughts and feelings about this matter and I admitted to her that for what "the person that you trust" did to me has landed some remarkable "stain" in my profile..that is...I will never trust people again...and does it true that we should trust only ourselves and couldn't agree more that...."it takes years to build up trust but only second to destroy it"...

life is good when someone cares for you

I admit that I was ignoring or rather "loosing grip" of this blog as I have long been hooked up with so many things happened in my life lately. The ups and downs in my life has made me a really though girl (i believe so). I was once so upset and down of disastrous "curiosity" by some people of why am I still single..I guess that's the curse of single lady like me. What made me stood out of these "disastrous moments" was the people who stood up before me...friends & family..they were the best thing I had ever have...their support, care, love and understanding has made me realised that how life is so good by having all of them that care for me and I guess I need to be with all the people who cares, loves and supports for others...and this is how i wanna say it...fazita cares back!

busy...

i realised that it is been such a long time that i have not make any post for my blog...i guess this phrase is kinda cliche'.."been busy and no time to blog"..the truth is i have so many things going on with my life lately..."busy" is the term but sometimes "busy" can be an escapism of "poor time management" or maybe is just "slip of the tongue"..
so what was "busy" means in my life lately...well..i believe that more responsibilities are being put on my shoulder..one of it was to prepare a very important paperwork for a executive diploma for my faculty. i have anticipated total haywire and mess for taking this responsibility..but i took it and to prove myself that i can take the challenge and best of all i am a responsible person..
there are times that i feel blocked and wanted to quit after realising that i was actually doing the "unfinished job" of other people who are ignorance and reluctant (that's what i believe but i'm sure he/she would have the cliche' statement..so busy and no time to do it..come on..) It was sad but i know that i have to think and take this positively...i just hope that i will all end well...fingers cross..