life goes on

It has been 3 days since the lost of Almarhum Sultan Johor and the whole corner of Johore are now in grief for 7 days. I am not sure about others but I can feel the sorrow around me but things must get going..I still need to conduct lectures and doing tasks that was given to me last week...guess that this is where we need to think that life must go on...but don't forget to take a glimpse of the past..

i don't know how to say it

its going to be a hard and boring this week. i couldn't say what is my condition after 3 weeks of lectures & tutorial classes but one thing for sure that i'm a bit suprised, glad and lost! Surprised because after 3 weeks gone i am still having empty class besides chairs and annoying sound of the air-conditioner but NO STUDENTS!..Glad because this semester i got less teaching hours BUT its to early to confirm coz based on last semester's incedent at a very last minute & a very last tutorial weeks i got extra class. I feel lost coz i still dont know what sholud i work on my Ph.D proposal topic even though i have lots of ideas but no FOCUS!

bila lagi.....PART 2

On my way to class today, one of my former student who is now in his final year studying engineering asked me.."bila nak walimah?" and I replied .."selagi tak ada gosip2 tu diam2 je..". Hahaha..I feel kinda funny for the answer but thats the safest feedback that i could think off..

Another situation..one of "Makcik Cleaner" here in my work place and she is one of the makcik(s) that i knew..asking me quite a similar tone kinda question.."Hai... teringin nak makan nasi minyak Fazita..bila lagi?"..my reply.."Nasi minyak?? bila2 saya boleh bawak makcik pegi makan.."..hahaha another case close..ermm I mean for that moment...

Similar situation...while i'm YM'ing (pls don't use this term for official purpose..just my expression..hehe) with a friend..one of the topic that poped-up is about making choices..he give me a very good and interesting analogy..between BUFFET & TABLE DHOTE (he's the hotcat expert..that's why). He said that..BUFFET is there a lotta choices that you can chose from...TABLE DHOTE is u have to take only that.... mean no choice .. decision is from your parents.

Well...is it hard for one to make excuses and choices? What would you do if you are in my shoes?

Mad World?

When i first listening to this song sung by Adam Lambert (AI gay) i fell in love but i'm doing my analysis on the lyrics to figure out something...

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny,I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world

What do you think?

new dawn..new horizon

It's the begining of a new year of 2010. I believe most of us are now having plans, dreams and determination in hand to embark on this new page of our life. Where many people tend to have their new year resolution..we sometimes fall to the trends..in where at the end of each year we end-up of not achieving what we have planned or maybe dreamt for.

In my shoes I strongly believe that we don't need to have every new year or the good one to realise what we have plan and dream. It is strongly depends on our own effort as what my "Ustazah & Ustaz" remind me.."ALLAH tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang kecuali dia berusaha...." If we success then we should be thankful and if we fail we shouldn't be sad coz we still have ALLAH to be a shoulder to cry on...

Perhaps I must state what are my plans & dreams for my next page of life..well..how about double-up my effort to be a better person and some seriousness in building up good/better mars & venus MOU..

JDU 3737

you might think that this is my car registration number and sadly it is not...but this is the car registration number that i encounter almost every morning on my way..driving to work. i am not going to describe about this car or how good is the car but am going to share what is so unique about the driver of this car...strictly not on how good-looking is he or who he is...but am going to talk about his attidude. while others are driving like a mad (some say that bp drivers are reckless and no manners) to reach the destination on time or before time, he just sit back, relax & enjoying his moment a.k.a. very slow..(most of us would agree that..lembap tul!)..even though there is a long line behind him he seems uncare and couldn't be bothered bout it. so what is the relevance of this situation to our life?
well, i wonder if life is as easy as what the driver percieve by taking it easy no matter how furious the world is..can we live a better life? Is the ignorance attitude will ensure that our life is ok? Or should we go with the flow? It is a though decision actually..because it concerns not just our life and about but also others as well. sometimes when we decide to ignore we might hurt somebody or even worst it'll become a vengence and later they will retaliate.

peace everyone?

I guess this statement is very cliche'..setiap manusia tidak pernah lari dari kesilapan & masalah". When you are not in that situation you might just react..ooo really?..but if you are totally in that situation..you will know it is actually true even though you are a "happy-go-lucky" person. So when you are in this haze (problem etc) what would you have in mind or what would you do? Shout out loud? Going for vacation? Yoga? or whatever it is.. the point is we wanna have peace in mind and to escape the burden that has long been in our life! The question is...which one of these solution will work? I believe that it's all going back to the basic...ALLAH is always there for you and to ALLAH you will find the peacefulness. I remember when i was in Mekah & Madinah for my umrah...i found my total peacefulness there..free from all these 'duniawi' just concentrate on "akhirat"...the feeling was so undescribable...divine...but I know that ALLAH has given the blessings and the opportunities to me to escape from all these craziness (work, personal life, financial etc). I made my promise in front of the Kaa'bah that I will return to visit our beloved Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and also the Kaa'bah itself. I cried when i left Makam Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and the Kaa'bah...you might wonder why...but if you have been there you will know how does it feel..